Wednesday, April 27, 2011

It's My Life - #1

He is not really that special but people seem to be drawn to him. He has a lot of friends but is pretty much a loner. He loves to be alone and yet he is a social animal. He is really shy and awkward in social situations but everyone knows he is in the room and he often dominates small group settings.

When he was 7 years old he overcame his lisp but it was replaced with a pretty strong stutter (he blames his younger brother’s near death and a brutal second grade teacher) and yet he has stood before thousands of people to give speeches.

He tried really hard to be the best little boy in the world and yet he exhausted his parents because he was a difficult, stubborn, emotional and opinionated child.

He is scared of success and terrified of failure.

He has dreams but never really committed to chasing them.

His is well versed and knowledgeable about the bible and yet he thinks most of it is myth. He believes in the historic bible but doubts G-D had anything to do with it. He does not spell out G-D because people cannot really know the name of G-D and yet he wonders if G-D created people or leaders created G-D to control people.

He is personally very conservative and yet he is a hell cat in bed.

He is a feminist and yet he stands up when a woman enters the room, opens the car door, always walks to left in public (protects a woman from street cars), cannot sit if there is a woman standing in the room, always allows the woman to enter first by holding the door and says yes ma’am more often than a black maid in the 1940’s.

He wishes he was kept but would never be willing to give up his independence.

As much as he loves to be alone he knows that his life is made complete by his guy.

He knew he was gay in fourth grade but needed to do a lot more research so he did not hook up with another guy until he was in his early twenties.

He is awkward and clumsy when it comes to sports that involve other people or a ball but he could probably replace Joe Paterno at PSU, manage the Yankees or sit on the bench with the Duke Basketball team.

He is a blue collar boy who has spent his life running away from it. Not because he is embarrassed by it or feels any shame but blue color boys don’t enjoy drinks at the King Cole Bar and he does.

He has really bad self esteem and self confidence and yet he carries himself like he walks on water. He is his own worst critic but if someone else offers criticism he/she better be prepared to defend his/her opinion with shock and awe. When doing self evaluations at work his boss’s are always amazed how hard he is on himself and yet he has never had a bad review (through 3 companies). His humor is often self-depreciating but he does not accept others not taking him seriously.

He is intolerant of intolerance.

He can’t tell a joke to save his life but he loves to tell funny stories. He really does know only one joke and it has to do with Sarah Jessica Parker.

He holds very strong political and social views but is always willing to hear what the other side as to say and desires to seek a common ground.

He has a very strong moral center and does not accept his own failings but will look beyond others peoples long after he should have moved on or demanded change.

He can be a human punching bag but don’t wrong one of his friends. He bends and bends like a willow tree in a hurricane but G-D help you when the wind stops blowing. He has a high tolerance but when enough is enough it is enough. And, to the best his memory allows he has really only held one long term grudge. Trust me this bastard truly deserves it and not that he really did anything to him but this man hurt so many people he liked this man does not deserve forgiveness.

He does not offend easily unless of course you are stupid, ignorant, intolerant, a racist, a bigot, a homophobe or you are a man who hits a woman.

He really does not like kids/children but once offered to take a January dip in the Atlantic if his co-workers would raise $3000 in two weeks for Autism. If they raised $5000 he’d take the dip in a Speedo. The President of the company stopped this effort but to keep our guy happy he personally donated $1000 on the spot. Some of the people he admired the most at his company had Autistic sons.

He is the biggest procrastinator he knows but when focused he is like a bullet train traveling across the Japanese country side.

He is pretty much afraid of everything but he will try it anyway.

He may not remember your name, the title of a movie or what he had for dinner last night but he remembers every childhood hurt.

No does not mean no it means there has to be a way.

He is pro choice on abortion and vehemently opposed to the death penalty. Really he thinks if we just stopped killing we would be better off.

He thinks being a vegetarian is the healthiest way to live but every time he tries it he just craves a steak and he does not like beef all that much.

He has the attention span of a flea but his focus on the details is frightening.

He knows that no one is perfect but he is so frustrated by his own flaws that it sometimes paralyzes him.

So this is what I have to work with – Do you think I will have enough to write about?

1 comment:

  1. Donald ..

    We may be 4000 miles apart, brought up in very different societies, but there are a lot of things in your appraisal which I have a lot of common ground with..

    Looking forward to reading your future posts with a great deal of relish..

    Keep The Faith Bro